Depressed? Probably not.

I haven’t had much of an online presence for a really long time. I’d say it’s because I’m never in front of a computer anymore, but really, it’s because I lost interest. They say when you lose interest in the things you love, you’re depressed. I was for a little while, but I’m learning to appreciate this life more and more everyday.  And I’m getting married in two months, which is super exciting, since it’s, you know a huge step in life and all, plus we get a mini wonderful vacation out of it since we’re getting married in Las Vegas.  (MGM Grand Wedding Chapel, Saturday, July 18, 2009, at 2pm!) I’m a little sad we don’t get to have a real honeymoon, but we’ll be able to do that later.  Maybe we’ll get to take a cruise.  They’re so romantic.  And OH how I love to travel.

I do wish for a different job everyday.  I’ve been at my current hourly wage for almost a year now and have probably complained the entire time.  And now they’ve started cutting my hours.  Which, even though I don’t want to be here, I still make plenty of sales for the store for just being part time.  So I try to be thankful that I even have a job, even though management are nazis and I have to watch over my shoulder every day. 

Almost every day I find new inspiration to keep going to school so I can go to grad school and do what I need to do.  It’s not as if it’s my dream to do what I’m doing, it’s more like I feel like this is what I was supposed to do.  I don’t know if that makes sense.  But I feel like the job I will come out with will be much more meaningful to me than making pretty advertisements.  I just know that if I have to work at this place more than another year I would seriously consider hurting myself just to get out of it.  I probably wouldn’t do it, but if it’s not hell, it’s at least purgatory.

Anywho, that’s all I’ve really been up to.  School and work.  I never have a real day off because I go to school during the week and work Thursday through Sunday.  I’m burning out so hard.  But I try to remind myself every day it will all be worth it later.  We’re in limbo about where we’re going to live, if we’re going to move near or far from where we are right now, and I hate not knowing.  Some big decisions are a-brewin.  Yikes.

Elevator Ettiquette at Work

It’s not hard people. 

1) Hold the door for people running to the elevator.  You can give up 2 seconds for them to get on.  Like you want to get to work that badly anyway.

2) If you have an overpowering odor about you, wait for an empty elevator.  This is also true if you have a large load, such as a cart.

3)  IF YOU SEE SOMEONE ABOUT TO GET ON THE ELEVATOR DO NOT PUSH THE BUTTON SO THE DOOR CLOSES ON THEM.  IT REALLY FUCKING HURTS TO HAVE AN ELEVATOR DOOR CLOSE ON YOU.

That is all.

Weekend

Damion went to Missouri this weekend to see his daughter.  He’s on his way back today.  You know, once you get used to someone being around and then they’re not there, it makes you kinda cranky. 

I barely left my house this weekend.  I wish my friends in Austin would give me a call once in a while.  You know, instead of assuming I’m dead or whatever.  “Alexis, you know the phone works both ways.”  Yeah, but I always do the calling.  Bump that.  So I stayed home and played the Sims, ran an errand, and did laundry.

Work so far this week has been awful.  It’s stressing me out and making my shoulder hurt.  Honestly, I shouldn’t be stressing about stupid stuff like what’s been going on.  This is a placeholder job, right?  I’ve always been scared that I’m going to “get stuck” at a job that I don’t want to make my career.  I don’t want to make this my career.  Especially when there’s not much room to even move up here.  What to do….

And, I was told by my PT that I owe like $17 per session.  10 sessions, add that up. Not cheap.  And I still have a bunk shoulder.  At least it’s getting better.

 Crankypants.

This week is SXSW, so I’m expecting the week to get better with all the free music I will be hearing.  Let’s keep our fingers crossed.

Hypocrisy

Hypocrisy (or being a hypocrite) is the act of pretending to oppose a belief or behaviour while holding the same beliefs or behaviours at the same time.

Funny. 

Where in the world is Lexi Sandiego?

How cool would it have been to have Sandiego for a last name when Carmen Sandiego was popular?  So cool.

Shoulder – I started physical therapy for my shoulder last week.  I have a tear in my rotator cuff.  Bad experience with the doc.  The PT’s are angels.  Angels who love burning my shoulder and poking the knots in my shoulder blade.  But my range is getting better and I’m getting my muscles back.

Boy – So, so happy.  He makes my day, every day.  And he likes helping me.  This weekend we planted flower and tomato seeds for our balcony. 

Work – is work.  I think it’s almost time for a new job.  That may or may not come with the impending move. 

Move?? – May or may not happen.  It depends on several factors.  It’s basically a wait and see game.  But you know what?  Right now, I’M STILL IN AUSTIN.  Ya freaks.

Family – My great grandmother is turning 90 so my fam is having a big party for her.  This weekend.  Oy.  That drive never gets any shorter.

Ghostland Observatory – !!!  I won tickets to go see them from the local radio station.  It’s this Friday. So. Ex. Cited.

Sewing classes – I signed up to take 4 classes.  2 beginner’s classes and 2 extra.  The 2 extra are going to be home decor.  If you’ve been following my life up til now, you know I have an interest in becoming an interior designer.  I’m considering this as a baby step towards that direction.

 So see?  Shit.  I have a lot going on.  It’s really not you, it’s me.  Don’t get all upset if you don’t hear from me.  It’s nothing personal.  But you know what?  The phone works both ways.  So nyah. :-p